...and running for a living!
It seems like whenever I go for a jog around noon, I find money laying on the side of the road! It's mine to keep because out in the middle of nowhere on the side of the road...where do I turn in money? I usually find about 20 bucks, but today I only found $14. I'm chalking it up to the carnival that was going on yesterday. A lot of people were parked by our apartments and so I'm sure someone accidentally dropped their cash. I feel bad, I really do.
In other news, I have officially made July 7th finals day for me. This coming week I have NO work (the family is on vacation) and so I am going to sit around at home and be a homework doin' fool. I should be almost done with my classes by the time next week is over, and I think that's just great. Soon enough my graduation stuff will be here, and I can make it official! Tony is taking me tonight to buy a dress I've been lusting after, and I plan on wearing it at my graduation (and probably to some other places before then, too). I'm really happy that my family is going to come out and sit through that horribly boring commencement ceremony. But, I'm sure that 3 seconds of me walking across the stage will be more than worth it for everyone in attendance.
I've been thinking of some hobbies I'd like to start after I finish school. I don't know if they'd ever happen, but who knows! I'd love to take a cake decorating class so I can make some fabulous birthday cakes. I love making cakes but the decorating I am not so good at. (And I just BARELY got decent and making cakes without having an emotional meltdown) I'd really like to take some professional cooking classes, too. I am so excited to read a book that I want to read! Sayanara textbooks! I am also hoping that having less school will give me more time to focus on training for a half marathon. I've got a whole list of things I'd like to do, but those are just a few of the things I've been thinking of recently. Oh--and I'd like to get a job.
6/19/10
6/12/10
Light at the End of the Tunnel
My absence in blogging has been due to two online classes I have been taking this summer. I had two classes left before I graduated and I decided that the drive to campus wasn't worth it. I signed up on independent study and now I am loaded with homework all the time. It takes a lot of discipline to do the work for these classes but I'm doing alright and in a month it will all be nothing but a bad dream. I graduate August 13th at 2pm. You're all invited :)
I ordered my cap and gown today and it made it seems that much more real. It seems so far away right now and thinking of the nearing end makes it much more bearable. There are so many things I'm excited to do when I'm finished. Read books that I want to read, work on my Bulgarian, and just RELAX! Oh..and...look for a real job.
I promise when school is done I will post more!
I ordered my cap and gown today and it made it seems that much more real. It seems so far away right now and thinking of the nearing end makes it much more bearable. There are so many things I'm excited to do when I'm finished. Read books that I want to read, work on my Bulgarian, and just RELAX! Oh..and...look for a real job.
I promise when school is done I will post more!
4/13/10
What Color are You?
I recently took a little quiz at colorcode.com to kind of re-affirm what I knew about my personality color. Just from reading the descriptions before I had determined that I was a white personality, and my quiz produced the same results:
white: 43%
blue: 28%
yellow: 26%
red: 3%
You are a WHITE personality. The Core Motivation that guides you through life is "Peace." This is not referring to a political agenda or the absence of war. It is, however, an absence of inner conflict, much closer to the idea of serenity, and an acceptance of oneself and others. You have a strong and compelling need to keep things in balance in your life so as to maintain an internal feeling of tranquility and comfort.
As a WHITE, you seek independence and require kindness, especially from those with whom you are in a relationship. You resist confrontation at all costs. (To you, feeling good internally is even more important than being good.) You are quiet by nature, process things very deeply and objectively with great clarity. Of all the colors, WHITES are the best listeners. You respect people who are direct but recoil from perceived hostility or verbal battle.
You need your "alone time" and refuse to be controlled by others. WHITES want to do things their own way and in their own time. They ask little of others and resent others demanding much of them. You are probably much stronger than people think, but are not often seen for your strength because you don't easily reveal your feelings.
I really think this describes me really well. I can especially see these personality traits right now in my life. I'm a sucker for these kind of tests but I think they're fun and this one is a little more well-known. If I told people I was a white, they would totally understand me :).
white: 43%
blue: 28%
yellow: 26%
red: 3%
You are a WHITE personality. The Core Motivation that guides you through life is "Peace." This is not referring to a political agenda or the absence of war. It is, however, an absence of inner conflict, much closer to the idea of serenity, and an acceptance of oneself and others. You have a strong and compelling need to keep things in balance in your life so as to maintain an internal feeling of tranquility and comfort.
As a WHITE, you seek independence and require kindness, especially from those with whom you are in a relationship. You resist confrontation at all costs. (To you, feeling good internally is even more important than being good.) You are quiet by nature, process things very deeply and objectively with great clarity. Of all the colors, WHITES are the best listeners. You respect people who are direct but recoil from perceived hostility or verbal battle.
You need your "alone time" and refuse to be controlled by others. WHITES want to do things their own way and in their own time. They ask little of others and resent others demanding much of them. You are probably much stronger than people think, but are not often seen for your strength because you don't easily reveal your feelings.
I really think this describes me really well. I can especially see these personality traits right now in my life. I'm a sucker for these kind of tests but I think they're fun and this one is a little more well-known. If I told people I was a white, they would totally understand me :).
3/28/10
Being Creative
Not that I have any time to do this sorta stuff right now, but I scheduled it ahead of time and made sure I had a block of time where I could make a birthday card. I was sad I couldn't make one for my dad, but I was having a hard time designing one in my head for him. Maybe I'll give him one in August when he comes out to see us.
Gracie, the little girl I nanny, is turning 4 this Tuesday. It will be nothing short of a princess affair. Her mom set up an appointment at the local beauty school for a mini pedicure, manicure, and updo for this princess. (I'm jealous...I just get to watch her be pampered)
It's going to be really fun, and I got her some cute little girly things for her birthday. I made her this card, and I quite like it! It screams Grace. Sorry the picture is kind of dark.
Gracie, the little girl I nanny, is turning 4 this Tuesday. It will be nothing short of a princess affair. Her mom set up an appointment at the local beauty school for a mini pedicure, manicure, and updo for this princess. (I'm jealous...I just get to watch her be pampered)
It's going to be really fun, and I got her some cute little girly things for her birthday. I made her this card, and I quite like it! It screams Grace. Sorry the picture is kind of dark.
3/19/10
My Best Friends
Sorry about the lack of posting, this semester is kicking my butt and I really don't have a lot of time for blogging!
Recently I have discovered something interesting. I have learned who my BEST friends are at this time in my life.
The first, quite obviously, is Tony. I could not ask for a better husband to be with. He understands me and sticks with me through my silly adventures I have in this life. He loves me for who I am, not for what I'm supposed to be or expected to be. He is so loving and accepting. I really don't think I could have married a better man for me. I can talk to him about everything I'm feeling without fear of judgment or criticism. He is my bestest friend and I'm glad I have him as a forever friend :)
The other, which I'm finding funnier by the day, is the little girl I spend most of my days with: Grace. This girl loves me so unconditionally it isn't funny. I realized that she was my best friend a week ago when we went to the mall for a "girls day." (it was her idea.) We tried silly clothes on, and she gave me her opinion on how things looked on me, whether they made me look silly or as beautiful as a princess. I feel good when I'm around her, and she told me that she likes being with me as well. I think it's hilarious that the one girlfriend I trust most is going to be four in a few weeks. I have a feeling that being a mom is going to be fun someday, if it's anything like hanging out with Gracie-Head Maisey.
I know this is a random post, but I've been thinking about it a lot lately. I feel like I'm beginning to relate to all of you mothers out there. I can imagine that your adorable children are among your best friends.
Recently I have discovered something interesting. I have learned who my BEST friends are at this time in my life.
The first, quite obviously, is Tony. I could not ask for a better husband to be with. He understands me and sticks with me through my silly adventures I have in this life. He loves me for who I am, not for what I'm supposed to be or expected to be. He is so loving and accepting. I really don't think I could have married a better man for me. I can talk to him about everything I'm feeling without fear of judgment or criticism. He is my bestest friend and I'm glad I have him as a forever friend :)
The other, which I'm finding funnier by the day, is the little girl I spend most of my days with: Grace. This girl loves me so unconditionally it isn't funny. I realized that she was my best friend a week ago when we went to the mall for a "girls day." (it was her idea.) We tried silly clothes on, and she gave me her opinion on how things looked on me, whether they made me look silly or as beautiful as a princess. I feel good when I'm around her, and she told me that she likes being with me as well. I think it's hilarious that the one girlfriend I trust most is going to be four in a few weeks. I have a feeling that being a mom is going to be fun someday, if it's anything like hanging out with Gracie-Head Maisey.
I know this is a random post, but I've been thinking about it a lot lately. I feel like I'm beginning to relate to all of you mothers out there. I can imagine that your adorable children are among your best friends.
2/16/10
Emerson Hits Home
I know that every middle-schooler who comes across Emerson's work quotes him like crazy because they feel so "misunderstood" and "misread", and it is my goal in this post to talk about how my recent reading of Emerson's "Self-Reliance" impacted me without sounding like a misunderstood pre-teen.
Recently I have felt like people, even those closest to me, simply don't and won't understand the thoughts I'm having and the things I'm feeling. I've been struggling with this for several months now, trying to figure out how to fix the discomforting feeling that accompanies my views. There are basically two sides to this fight: one, I be who I want to be, think what I feel is right, and have people think less of me, scorn me, tell me "how sad" it is that I feel this way; or two, I suck it up, put on a pretty smile and make the world around me happy all the while feeling horribly guilty and empty on the inside. As you can see, these are two pretty extreme and opposite results so the decision on how to act is a very serious and difficult one.
In my English class I'm taking to finish up my general education courses at school, we've been delving into personal narratives. I kind of find them hard to read and very long and boring, but I try my best to keep up. One exception was when we read Emerson's essay entitled "Self-Reliance." I loved reading this work! In case you aren't familiar with it, it is essentially an essay about not being a conformist to make people happy, and living your life for you--not for the sake of others. If you're interested in reading the entire thing, you can find it here. It really gave me some hope for the hard time I'm having and I felt that it was almost a pep talk for me to just be myself, and live my life for me. Forget everyone else, there's no need to do things simply to please others. It was really inspiring and I'm so glad I read it at this time in my life.
Here are some of the quotes from Emerson that really struck me:
Recently I have felt like people, even those closest to me, simply don't and won't understand the thoughts I'm having and the things I'm feeling. I've been struggling with this for several months now, trying to figure out how to fix the discomforting feeling that accompanies my views. There are basically two sides to this fight: one, I be who I want to be, think what I feel is right, and have people think less of me, scorn me, tell me "how sad" it is that I feel this way; or two, I suck it up, put on a pretty smile and make the world around me happy all the while feeling horribly guilty and empty on the inside. As you can see, these are two pretty extreme and opposite results so the decision on how to act is a very serious and difficult one.
In my English class I'm taking to finish up my general education courses at school, we've been delving into personal narratives. I kind of find them hard to read and very long and boring, but I try my best to keep up. One exception was when we read Emerson's essay entitled "Self-Reliance." I loved reading this work! In case you aren't familiar with it, it is essentially an essay about not being a conformist to make people happy, and living your life for you--not for the sake of others. If you're interested in reading the entire thing, you can find it here. It really gave me some hope for the hard time I'm having and I felt that it was almost a pep talk for me to just be myself, and live my life for me. Forget everyone else, there's no need to do things simply to please others. It was really inspiring and I'm so glad I read it at this time in my life.
Here are some of the quotes from Emerson that really struck me:
"It is the harder, because you will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you know it. It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude."I am not becoming some sort of hippie transcendentalist or anything, I just wanted to share some of these quotes because I really loved them. Sorry if this was too much. :)
"Speak what you think now in hard words, and to-morrow speak what to-morrow thinks in hard words again, though it contradict every thing you said to-day. -- `Ah, so you shall be sure to be misunderstood.' -- Is it so bad, then, to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be great is to be misunderstood. "
"There is a mortifying experience in particular, which does not fail to wreak itself also in the general history; I mean "the foolish face of praise," the forced smile which we put on in company where we do not feel at ease in answer to conversation which does not interest us. The muscles, not spontaneously moved, but moved by a low usurping wilfulness, grow tight about the outline of the face with the most disagreeable sensation. "
"The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them."
2/1/10
Gettin' Stuff Done
This probably makes me sound like an old lady, but recently I have found great joy in getting stuff done during the day. This usually never involves cleaning, but I mean setting up appointments, paying bills, getting things straightened out so that I am less stressed. Today was one of those days where I woke up dead tired, looking like death warmed over. But, I got a lot done and my day that could have been quite miserable turned into a pretty good one! I have less to stress about because I got a lot of things in order. Yay!
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